This Week's Homework Assignment

Greetings and Salutations
     Hello and how are you? Today was my first day back after taking time for myself and I am happy to report that I took a deep breath and it was fine.. I got plenty of sleep and got up early.. Took my time and went in ready to let the day unfold as it was going to.. Had some great karma sent my way and while I felt as though I was working under water (it was kinda like TV slow-mo) I rate the experience as an A+ overall.. How grateful I am? More than I can express in words.. Still though, odd to not call mom on the way into work like I have every morning for 5 years and I still somewhat expect to see her any day now pop over to say she can help me in the yard or with some project around the house.. I am leaning hard on faith that this feeling will subside with time.. Saturday was terrible and I spent the entire day crying.. Felt like I digested another really big piece of the puzzle they call grief.. I have moved from the feeling of she is on vacation to knowing she is gone but my heart can't let my brain tell me where she really is.. The silence my step dad is living in must be deafening.. It is a challenge to go over to see him.. My mom is everywhere and it screws with my head.. I feel closer to her yet, it is painful at the same time..
  I want to encourage you to read.. It is truly the pathway to your destiny.. Teach yourself where you want to take yourself.. Does that make sense? It sure does to me.. Its like going to school without the formal tests and grades.. Real life is the test and I truly believe that you are the one who holds all the answers.. The grade is when you are living the life you dream about and work hard to obtain it.. It is about your persistence.. It is about being real with yourself and trying to go after what you want every day.. Even if it is only 15 minutes at a time.. I practice one place I would like to go every week when I blog.. Through this process I have discovered that I really love to write.. I want to learn more about it so I can get better and quicker.. That requires reading.. I want to learn more and reinforce what I have learned about money.. That requires more reading.. I can remember thinking that once, just once, I wanted to know the name of an author mentioned anywhere.. I have done that many times now.. It makes me smile when I am reading a book that is unrelated and I come across not only an author I know, but have already read the book they are talking about.. Call me a dork (dork) but I love that!!
     The getting started is the hardest part.. Once you get the momentum going of learning and teaching yourself about where you want to be and go it gets easier.. The books reinforce each other and it doesn't take long before you are reading and understand not only the concept they are talking about but you have watched it unfold in your own life.. I can blog about these things every Monday, but it isn't about my journey.. It is about yours.. You can't sit around doing the same things that don't put you closer to doing what you seek and hope it will just come to you.. Your journey will be different from mine.. Try things you never thought would work.. Next time you think the answer is no, ask.. Behave as if the answer is yes.. Challenge yourself this week to something.. Take steps to make it happen.. Write me.. Tell me what you planned and how it happened.. In the beginning, make it something simple.. Success is what you need to build on.. Let me know how it turned out.. Helpfulbee@gmail.com.. Here is to your success and many more!!

Tootles :)
Heather